life update 01
the beautiful chaos that is my life
hey loves,
It’s almost the weekenddd... how has everyone’s week been?
Mine? Busy. Chaotic. Gloriously unhinged.
Picture this: grad school, full course load, weekly quizzes, a mountain of assignments. Layered on top of that, a separate professional certificate program, because apparently one academic commitment wasn’t enough. Oh, and it’s internship season, so interviews have been taking over my calendar all week. I had one scheduled for tomorrow too, but it got pushed to next week, and honestly? That one reschedule felt like the universe handing me a glass of water in the desert.
You’d think that’s plenty. You’d think I’d be satisfied. You would be so wrong.
Because I woke up one morning, looked at my portfolio website, decided I hated it, and promptly added a full site revamp to my to-do list: no notes, no warning, just chaos. I also applied to volunteer as a book reviewer for a literary magazine, and I start next month. A research paper I wrote last semester is being published as a book chapter, and we just entered the production phase. And the cherry on top? I got accepted into an Editorial Fellowship, and I am EXCITED.
So yeah. Your girl is busy. A lot is happening. I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Every now and then, I’ll be updating you all on what’s going on in my life. Think of it as a little mini-series.
One thing these interviews have drilled into me: you have to learn how to market yourself. Your skills, your value, your story. For the longest time, I struggled with this, and it cost me. I missed out on a huge opportunity a few years ago because of it, and that stung in a way that stuck.
But that’s the thing about painful lessons. They tend to actually teach you something. I made a decision after that to get serious about learning how to advocate for myself, because here’s the truth: you can be exceptional at what you do, and it won’t matter if you can’t communicate that to the person sitting across from you. Talent without presentation is a well-kept secret. And secrets don’t get hired.
So I met a guy last month. Cute. I thought, okay, maybe this could be something fun. Then he opened his mouth, and I immediately knew. Nothing was ever going to happen. Not even a little bit. We had nothing in common, the conversation went nowhere, and just like that, the interest was gone. Fully. Completely. See ya.
I’ve put myself on a dating hiatus, and honestly? I’m thriving.
Dating can be fun when it’s done right, but it’s also exhausting, and now and then, I have to step back and remember that my twenties are mine. For my goals, my ambitions, my own becoming. I made that vow to myself, and I intend to keep it.
People hear “I don’t want a relationship right now” and assume it’s because you’re too busy, and I used to say that too. It’s easier. But I’m going to be honest: it’s not really about time. I could make the time if I wanted to. The truth is, I just don’t want to.
I noticed my piece titled “the lost art of making out” has been doing really well here, and I received a couple of requests for a part 2/sequel and I’ve been considering it. Is that something you’d like? If I decide to indulge you all, I’ll add a few tips and tricks and go a bit more in depth on technique because some of you need it if I’m being honest lol….
I don’t want this to be too long, so I’ll end here for now…
See you,
xoxo
emmy
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